Sunday, June 3, 2012

My One Wish

So I was a complete girl today and watched a million chick flicks on TV. I finished most of the work I had to do, made some chamomile tea, and enjoyed spending time alone. Anyway, as you can imagine, this is going to be about love. Not to be a broken record, but I firmly believe that love is the most powerful feeling that two people can share. Yes, we all have our secrets, we all tell lies from time to time, and we all do things that we regret. But, when you can forget all that stuff and completely start over with someone, it's an amazing feeling. Knowing that they won't judge you, that they don't need to know everything about you, and that they are going to be there for you no matter what... It's such a relief.

Anyway, I was watching these movies and I started to think about all the stupid, emotional stuff I've done as a girl. I feel bad for poor Ian who had to hold us together through those times. I think back to what I said, how I felt, and what was going through my head, and I can't help but laugh. I'm such a girl. But that's not what I want to vent about. The general concept that really struck me today was that he really, truly is the man I need by my side forever. He's strong, passionate, brilliant... I could keep going, but I won't. Point being: as emotional and dumb as I get sometimes, I know that nothing in this world could make me really leave him. I would die. Okay, maybe not die, but my life would be worse. Maybe he's not the most vocal or spontaneous, but he's everything I could ever need and more.

As I watched these chick flicks, I kept thinking, 'that's not how real relationships are.' Yes, everyone has their problems, but the movies were so fictional. It really made me appreciate what I have and how real it is. Not to rush anything, but I do want him in my life forever. There's just no way around that. I think about waking up and making us breakfast, going out on date nights to keep things fun, encouraging him through everything he does, and going on family vacations with our children (waaaaay in the future).

I almost started crying. I just felt so happy. I've seen so many of my friends date guys, fall in love, and end up discovering that he wasn't the one. I used to fear that we could be in that same position one day, but I don't think we will be. Today, he came up behind me, kissed my shoulder, and whispered, 'I love you... and your peeling shoulder that I just kissed.' It was so freaking adorable. He will never fully understand how happy I am to be dating my best friend. I can tell him anything, but, even more than that, I don't have to tell him everything. I don't have to go into detail about things or go on and on about dumb drama or anything like that. We can sit in silence and still be perfectly happy.

I don't think anyone cares about the fact that I love my boyfriend, but I do think everyone can understand the feeling of wanting to spend your life with someone. I'm not concerned with rules or what people will think; I just know that I love him and I want him forever. Everyone's experienced love. Gay, straight, short, long, intimate, shallow... we all know love. We all know what it feels like to want to wake up and see that one face. Just being in his presence makes me feel safe and happy. Who wouldn't want to live with their best friend? Especially as college comes to an end and I continually think about my future, I just wish I could bypass the bullcrap and just be with him.

Summary: I am in love with my best friend and all I want is to be this blissfully happy with him forever. I don't care how long we've dated; I know what I know. I love my relationship. Curse these chick movies and making me feel all sappy. But it's true. Being in a genuine relationship is irreplaceable, and his happiness means more to me than anything else.

I'm done rambling. I just wanna dress up, pick him up, and go somewhere fancy just to show him exactly how I feel. Unfortunately, I'm horribly awkward and would probably giggle through the whole thing and ruin it. :P

Love is great :)