Sunday, February 27, 2011

I'm sick of people sitting idly by while the world slips between their fingers.

To avoid sounding mad, I'm going to stay as vague as possible. However, as the title states, I'm sick of people doing nothing. I feel like I know so many people with such potential, such charisma but they just sit around wasting their lives. You cannot blame alcohol, drugs, men/woman, psychological mindsets, etc for your lack of motivation. 

The most annoying thing to me is seeing someone with all the potential in the world yet they don't expand on it. If you're good at something, that's a great first step, but life can't end there. Take that first step and run with it! One bad situation or feeling shouldn't be enough to alter your mindset completely or stop you from doing what you want.

Another thing is when friends get all hot and heated about something that doesn't matter. People now-a-days take everything so personally. Someone will hang out with you one day, and then hate you the next, never speaking to you again because of one instance. It takes time to get to know someone; things aren't meant to come easily. It's those that are worth the effort that you know will make a difference in your life. But giving up is never good, either. You never know how much that person needs you in their life even if you don't want them in yours. 

Honestly, I have no idea what this post is about. I just don't like wasted potential or irrational blowups. It seems a lot of these recently have crossed my path and it's getting harder and harder to love people who are trying so hard to push others away. 

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Before you have opinions, know both sides.

I am open to people disagreeing with me. Honestly, I prefer it because it allows both me and my opponent to thoroughly evaluate why we believe whatever we believe. That said, this was emailed to me by my mother earlier today, and I thought it was a fresh perspective on the world today, according to Billy Graham. Go ahead and hate him if you want to, but at least do it knowing why...

[Billy Graham's prayer for our nation]

"Heavenly Father, we come before you  today to ask your forgiveness and to seek your  direction and guidance.  We know Your Word  says, 'Woe to those who call evil good,' but  that is exactly what we have done.  We have  lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our  values.. We have exploited the poor and  called it the lottery. We have rewarded  laziness and called it welfare. We have  killed our unborn and called it choice.  We have shot abortionists and called it  justifiable.  We have neglected to  discipline our children and called it building self esteem..  We have abused power  and called it politics. We have coveted  our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition.  We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it  freedom of expression.  We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment.   Search us, Oh God, and know our hearts  today; cleanse us from every sin and Set us  free. Amen!"

With the Lord's help,  may this prayer sweep over our nation and  wholeheartedly become our desire so that we  again can be called 'One nation under God!'

Monday, February 7, 2011

Dreams only last for a night.

I woke up to rain, walked to class in a t-shirt, and left java city in a blizzard. Today's weather made me want to be back in the north! Well, in a city. It brought me back to the days in Chicago when I'd have to fight feet of snow just to get to the car. It made me wish to be in Nashville trying to survive as a starving artist. It made me think about my future. 

I don't know why, but whenever I think about my future, I want to be out of college. Not that I don't love it here and not to sound ungrateful, but I want to be out in the world doing what I love. There is still some preparation work that I need to do before I'm ready, but I just want to GO! I want to go out into the world and do what I want to do! 

There is a reason I'm where I am and there is a reason I have another two years here, but I can't help but want to be out. At the same time, it makes me sad to think of my life without my friends. Without a significant other, they're all I have up here. My family is far away, but I know that they would be here for me at any time. I mean, I still feel lonely, but they are right there by my side. 

Which is why Kathryn and I (well, I can't speak for you, girl, but I hope you agree!) want to start small and live in Nashville. We will have someone going through the same pain. We can suffer together. We can get our foot in the door and still feel at home, all at the same time. Or we can just move to Vancouver; I'm down with that, too ;) 

Anyway, to those of you reading this, I'm sorry. I'm just babbling. To summarize: I want to get on with my life. I want to make my dreams into my reality and leave dreaming to those without desire. 

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Today, I smiled.

Today I received a letter in the mail from a dear friend who left for the Navy about two months ago. The first letter he sent simply said, "Hey Kristen, what's up?" He was always a funny kid, and his letter definitely made me laugh. Only Andrew would send such a simple letter, but I knew he honestly cared about my reply. I kept my letter back to him short, speaking of light topics such as school and work.

However, today I received his second letter. It was four pages long, and his words made it seem like he was right next to me again. It brought me back to the time we hung out in my room, or when we sat on his floor playing Halo. The way he spoke of our time together, how he said thinking about it made him happy, and how he said he wanted to get coffee when he is back in town all made me miss him. Coffee. He knows me. Yes, we will sit and talk about life, God, the Navy, school, and all that, but such a simple request means so much to him now that he is so far away. Wow. How often do we take for granted the fact that we can get a cup of coffee whenever we feel like it? 

He told me other things they did in physical training, but I will leave out the gruesome details. He told me that he was using his letters to me as a type of journal, written different days throughout the week, each with new events and feelings that he knew no other way to express. Well, at least to me. (yes, he even indicated the new days and everything. :] haha)

I knew him for only 3, maybe 4, months before he shipped out, but it was the kind of bond that was meant to last longer. I'm not confessing some secret love or anything, but rather saying how God works in our lives is crazy. This guy. This random dude I met on a lake with my church, he would be writing me letters months later from a different city, sharing his inner most thought with me. The Lord put Andrew in my life out of nowhere, and He intends for him to be in it for much longer. 

This idea just makes me realize how quickly things can change. In the blink of an eye, I could be in love, fall down, or die. We just never know. But I am grateful that I was blessed with such an amazing friend and son of God who will help me through this time when I have so much on my mind. 

Andrew Peters, I don't know if you'll ever read this, but thank you. Thank you for being there for me, and thank you for helping me through problems that you don't even know exist yet. I hope I get to see you very soon. 

I love you and I know you will always be there for me to rely on. I'm praying for you. 

:) Support the Troops.