Thursday, July 29, 2010

Is it bad to be a little insane?

A lot of people tell me that what I major in, what I dream to be, and my future life plans are all crazy. "You'll never make money doing that." "Do you know how small your chances are?" "Have you really planned this out?" Blah, blah, blah. Yes, people, I know all the pessimism that is out there. I get it. My monetary situation isn't planned out. So?

Did God not mass produce hundreds of fish and bread? By doubting my ability to survive, you are doubting the power of God. I am following the plans--the passions-- that He has instilled in me, and will, therefore, not worry. Of course, budgets need to be made and plans need to be set in order to keep one's head on straight, but I will not worry when it comes to things of this world. The Lord has a plan for my life and He will not let me fail. I will do what I'm meant to do when I'm meant to do it. Simple as that.

This isn't all about me. There are so many people out there who give up on their dreams because it's hard, or because people told them they had no chance. Now, unless you extremely suck at it, there is no reason to give up. More than dreams, people give up on themselves. They lose faith that there is something perfect out there for them, and they settle with whatever comes first. Sometimes being patient can pay off more than we can fathom.

All I'm trying to say is to never give up on yourself. Whether it's your life dream, relationship status, or confidence, just be proud of who you are. You are someone's "the one." The one person who can help the business. The one person who can sell the product. The one person to start a family. But if you don't believe that you are, then neither will they.

I'm horrible at pep talks, but, basically, sometimes being a little crazy isn't so bad.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I miss these days

No, college wasn't years ago; it's not a gleam of my life that once was and I now look back on in remembrance. It is real and it is now. But, as I sit at home this summer, I just think back at everything I love about college. True: doing some of the school work is kind of a bummer. There are many classes that will never help me in the future, but that's life.

The freedom in college is great. No parents to stop you, no rules to abide by, and no obstacles to stand in your way. But honestly, who cares? I would rather have no freedom and all my friends than the alternative. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy my independence, but it's my friends that make everything so fun. Everyone is so goofy and outgoing, and I have yet to regret a moment with them. If there is someone that I wish it avoid-- I can. It's a big school. But all these girls aren't people to flee from, but rather to run TO. (ugh, I feel icky for ending that in a preposition, but you get the point. haha)

We have times that speak for themselves. We have made future plans (yes, emily, this includes you. 10 years from now :] ) and plans for the present. We have the bond of sisters but without the drama (usually). We don't judge each other by our majors, life choices, or hometowns. Friendship is a place where one can be themselves no matter what. I miss calling them when I'm bored to hang out, running to walmart at midnight to spend money we don't have, and hitting up waffle house late at night to get some cheap (crappy) coffee.

Of course, we all have friends at home. Duh. But there's something different about when you're at college. I have yet to figure out what that is, but I can feel it. These are the cliché friends that we will know "forever no matter what" and that makes me happy :)

I love you girls with all my heart and I can't wait to see you all again! Celebratory dinner at Manpuku that Friday night? Yes, it is a must! I will see you all in a month; get ready!